Guess what!! 😆A few weeks ago I got an email from theHale Center Theater in Orem about auditions for A Christmas Carol. I get their email updates. I've often gotten their emails about auditions but never felt like I could do it (I have high anxiety). But I've been working on that with God's help and when the email came this time I didn't feel myself seized with the usual doubt and fear. So after a few days and discussions with Matt I decided to call and make the appointment to audition! That alone was a miracle!
I then had to find a song and write a theater resume. I remembered Julie had done that and that Mom had lots of experience so I texted them a lot during the process. Matt helped with my voice which presented a growing experience as my pride and fear got in the way. But God helped me see it and Matt was patient and forgiving. Some ladies in the ward helped me by playing the accompaniment so I could record it and practice with it. Again I'm not sure I would have been able to ask for fear before.
Auditions were crazy and amazing! Everyone was so talented! I was awed to be in the same room! I made it through with only super nervous instead of passing out. God is good! I thanked Him all the way home. For me, THIS was a victory! To see how much I've changed!
A few days later I received an email for callbacks! Not for a part but for the choir. I couldn't believe it! They gave us the music Sunday for the Monday callback. With Matt and Nicole's help I was able to get a couple of hours to practice and learn soprano and alto. The speed was the killer! So fast!!
As we warmed up at the callback, I felt I would fall over and wanted to sit down. But I knew if I did they wouldn't consider me. Said a prayer. As we sang I calmed down and it was fun! So fun to be part of a choir again! I forgot how amazing it is and beautiful!! So I decided to just enjoy singing and listening. Also God sent a wonderful friendly stranger to sit by me! We were both new to the experience and it was fun to have someone to cheer for (quietly) after we sang. God is good!
Well the next day Matt wanted me to see if I made it in. I thought it would take days to decide so I casually opened my email. He spotted the email before I did and my heart skipped a beat. I wasn't sure I could click on it. But I did. I don't remember the last time I screamed at news!! I made it in! Alto! And I'm double cast so it won't be every night which is what I hoped for so I could be with my family during the Christmas season.
God is so good! This experience is going to give me a lot of lessons about myself and I am excited! And it will be so fun to perform again! I love being an 'extra'! And to get to sing in a choir again!! And act!! It's so amazing!!
This was the picture I used on my resume
